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Eating off of Glass-Screen Plates

Society: Now serving gourmet bullshit!
We hear pretty lies, sugar-coated to be easier to swallow, and we're popping them like Xanax.
Gluttonous and insatiable, we devour half-truths, alternative facts, and straight up falsehoods,
Eager to excuse our own fat faces by pointing shit-covered fingers in the direction of others.
Glass screens are the plates we eat off of, taking full advantage of bottomless information,
Filling our heads and stomachs with synthetic realities.
Who appointed the media to be our server?
Someone get the manager, because THIS is not what I ordered.
I asked for truth, and got excuses.
I wanted news, and got distractions.
Please ma'am, I'm just the waiter here, let me send this back and get it redone for you.
Yes, do that, because I never saw "half-baked, biased opinion" on the menu.
Why is everything we hear and see and taste being digested as truth,
When we haven't even taken the time to read the ingredients?
We're greedy little sav…

Unspoken Questions

So alike we are.
So alike we are, we say.
We smile, staring, unmoving.
And we say no more.
Because we wonder,
If maybe we are so alike,
That we don't want to know.
Because behind the smiles,
Lurk the demons,
And we wonder.
But dare not say.
How alike we are.

-Elle. February 19th, 2017

This is Death

She was staring at the marker with glazed eyes and a dead face, still as a statue for what felt like hours. I knew what she was feeling. I knew that all she wanted in that moment was to curl up in her daughter's grave and die, to be with her forever. She wasn't just hurting; she was experiencing the most excruciating pain a human being can suffer, mentally or physically. Someone had squeezed all the air out of her lungs, ripped her heart from her chest, stirred her insides with despair and heartache, and forever changed the essence of her humanity. And that someone was me.

I didn't choose to be Death. I was gifted with and cursed by it. Taking lives against my will, being given to me by someone else, sometimes done as an act of mercy, other times as an act of vengeance. I'm used to this. I'm used to all of this. I'm used to seeing the effects of my handiwork in the hearts and faces of loved ones, so much so that I've been hardened by it. Less by the genuine…

Life & Hands

I work in a clinic that manages patients who use blood thinners. I see a versatile demographic of people from young to elderly, rich to poor, thin to obese, etc. The one thing I've thought of in earnest recently is people's hands. I know it's a silly thing to think about really, but I find them truly mesmerizing. There's a lifetime of stories in people's hands and when you think about it, that's amazing. There is literally a lifetime of memories right there on two palms and ten fingers.


I look at my hands and I see the scars from the number of cuts I've gotten over the years. Cuts suffered from running through thick brush during summers spent at my grandparents. Cuts from handling wood without gloves. A scar from the single stitch I needed in the skin that stretches between my middle and ring fingers when I tried to core an apple with a steak knife... while it was sitting in my hand. I have scars from burns, evidence of a childhood I spent in the kitchen. W…